Yeah so my last post was about a year ago. The computer is out of storage so i'll be on more often I guess. Myspace is too political and facebook is overrated so I come back to the first for me. Xanga. Kinda refreshing really. Crazy 88 Project update-I got it running great slapped some mild performance parts on it and its awsome but my transmission is going out so Im gonna get a Bowtie Overdrive. I got Pictures and I'll upload later. Even If nobody uses xanga anymore it'll be a good place to store my project information. lots of stuff to do.

So yeah, I'm living at a friend of mine's house. My 21st just passed and I did'nt get to do anything. Don't freak out. But 2 days later I finished paying for my 88 trans am. It ran when first put money on it and the day I get to roll it off the lot (obviously excited) it doesn't roll two inches! I had signed the "no warranty" "owed nothing" papers because I knew it ran. "I hope you get it fixed" is what the guy said as I angrily left the lot. So after a lot of legal bullshit I'm told that I cant  do anything So now I have a broke down firebird on my hands. Where is it? oh its still on the lot. So I have two projects to write about. Project Find My Own Place and Project Trans am. The names need work-Project Make Better Project Names. Its a work in progress. One job doesn't cut it so I'm looking online for a second job. Any suggestions?

I Can't think of anything to write....I'm just starring at the plank page. I had a lot on my mind. Its gone now. Blank like this page. Like a question you would've been able to answer only if it wasn't asked. blows your mind.

So what have I been doing. Meditating, contemplating, concentrating, orchestrating, now I just need to demonstrate. What you may ask? simple; something to do all those things for. I'm making progress. I have too many "irons in the fire". Its hard for me to stick to something nowadays. I get bored cause I want everything and constantly chase what I lack.

I can feel a breakthrough though coming. Not because something is going to "happen" for me. It's because I am going to do something - it can "happen" no other way. I had a period where I got caught in everything and now i have a little more discernment and a little more wisdom. I'm more focused = cause I chose to be. More determined = cause I chose to be. I am more motivated = cause I chose to be.

It sounds good huh? I can't rush it though, cause it has to last. I need a little more direction and motivation because I don't have the time to waste. Its time to demonstrate.

 I believe that a change happens every now and then for every individual and mine's past due. my confidence is coming back to me and my mind is everywhere. Tsuki no kokoro......Well anyway I was and still am pretty bored which is why I just typed all this.